Taking Less Space

I had all these cool names for my new blog which were all plays on "diet" and "weight watchers" and so on. I thought I was being so clever with "Less of Me," for instance. No luck. Let's just say there are many people blogging about weight loss and dieting and weight watchers. And they've got all the cool blog names. So here I am with "Taking Less Space."

As for me, it is day four of my "double w" program--the plan, the program--the one thing that did work for me (in my 30s), Weight Watchers. So far, it's not awful. I was really expecting to be cranky, hungry, bitter, resentful. But it's not bad. I hate counting. I am bad at math. But I write everything down when I eat it, as soon as I eat it, and it's OK.

I love to cook. I love food. I love eating. So far I've been able to do all three. I just throw more veggies in with whatever and I'm good. Tonight was the first night I went over my points, but that was because I had walnuts before I counted how many points were there. Lots of points!

Anyway, no one at my WW meeting (including the leader) is perky. I hate perky. I told myself if she was perky, I'd leave. But she was good and free of perkiness. I thought the room full of women would see the fat, fat, fat new person coming in. But people seemed friendly and even gave me a few tips (Laughing Cow light cheese is a good snack.)

I got to say, I've got a LONG, LONG, LONG way to go. I'm not going to say how much I weigh. I won't say how many pounds I'd like to lose. Not yet. The number is too big to wrap my head around. Let's just say I am taking the AA approach of "one day at a time." Let's just try eating healthy TODAY and see how we do. Maybe think about the week. That's it.

I have tried and failed at so many diets, it is depressing. I've tried and failed, tried and failed. I was hoping if I signed up for WW, the rest would follow. So far, so good. Because this thing, this plan to take up less space in the world is taking up a lot of time and space in my life now. So my investment in counting and measuring and planning and tracking is work. It takes effort in the beginning. I'm sure it'll be easier as time goes on. Still, I better lose friggin' weight next week .

I should also say that I've been to the gym a few times this week. I'm not killing myself yet, but a journey of a thousand steps, blah blah blah.

So, I'll be blogging every now and again about my efforts. Hopefully, I will be honest and funny and helpful and maybe even educational. Maybe it will help me get to the point where I do take up less space--in my clothes, in my closet, in my bed.
Right now, tonight--it is the beginning.